Wounded Creative Core

What is The Wounded Creative Core? 

We are born with the ability to create and access that inner wisdom of inspiration, our creative core.  Institutions (schools, governments, etc.), cultures and religious dogma create conform and perform structures of behavior.  These structures constrain the creative core through punishment. These punishments are designed to reinforce control over the individual and groups through the use of physical, emotional, mental, financial and spiritual violence.

The institutions put you in a box.  The religious dogma may say that you can’t step outside of their moral box and love who you want without being condemned or worse.  A culture or religion may define your life in terms of your gender. If you are a woman you may be expected to marry at age 16. Yet your heart yearns to become an astrophysicist.  If you listen to your heart’s yearning, creative core, you may lose your family, your freedom and possibly your life. As a woman born in the early 1950’s it was determined that I had a specific set of options for a job; teacher, nurse or secretary.  I was expected to get married and have children, in that order. When creativity was expressed it had to be confined to acceptable forms that adhered to the expectations of the institutions.  

When the Creative Core is wounded a plethora of trauma is experienced.  That trauma translates to rejection, feeling unwanted, fear of authority, fear of your parents, fear of being unloved, and more.  These fears and feelings become emotional states and created patterns that become our identity.  This wounding is also reflected in the wounding of the feminine and masculine aspects of who we are.

*The Wounded Creative Core is explored in more depth in the Remen Q book.

Fears

  • Fear of my own creative abilities
  • Fear of your sexuality
  • Fear of your body
  • Fear of rules
  • Fear of breaking the rules
  • Fear of authority
  • Fear of standing up for what you believe
  • Fear of feeling
  • Fear of having your creativity seen
  • Fear of having my creativity questioned
  • Fear of being diminished
  • Fear of judgment
  • Fear of being forced to give up creative efforts
  • Fear of not being able to defend my creativity
  • Fear of not being able to follow through with my creative ideas
  • Fear I am going the wrong way
  • Fear of having my creativity destroyed
  • Fear of having my ideas stolen
  • Fear of being destroyed by criticism
  • Fear of being shamed / humiliated for my creativity
  • Fear of being ridiculed
  • Fear of being vulnerable and open
  • Fear of being seen 

Sinus Congestion – Chronic

Fears

  • Fear of being with people that reflect me back to me
  • Fear of flow
  • Fear of seeing
  • Fear of looking
  • Fear of freedom
  • Fear of living
  • Fear of being stopped from what they want to do
  • Fear of not having stuff
  • Fear of emptiness
  • Fear of being nothingness
  • Fear of not being defined by their stuff
  • Fear of summer
  • Fear of harvest
  • Fear of being present (congested thinking)
  • Fear of knowing the inner presence
  • Fear of being lost in someone else’s success
  • Fear of not being good enough
  • Fear of failure
  • Fear of breathing in life

Emotional States

  • Forethought is not their strong suit. They can’t seem to understand that if they do X then Y will happen. Led them to a place of constantly being mystified by their actions/reactions. Wants everyone else to understand that they didn’t see “that” coming. That is the story of their life. Hoards in a minor way. Has lots of stuff all around. Lots of energetic congestion with the stuff. Example: has lots of books they will never read and outgrew their usefulness long ago.
  • Warm weather makes them anxious. There’s a DNA memory (ancestral) of a trauma or hardship that happened repeatedly during the times of warm weather. That DNA memory triggers a desire to retreat and muffle any sounds they might make. They hold their life in an odd balance of live and don’t live (this is not life or death) it’s about being present in their life …smelling the air, feeling the air…because life is breath and breathing.
  • Nothing seems to satisfy their need to know. ‘Knowing’ is a driving force. They reach outside of themselves for wisdom that is within. They are constantly searching for the latest greatest wisdom and latest greatest teacher selling their wisdom for a few schillings.
  • Joyful at the site of others success but inward they feel defeated by it. This is not envy or jealousy. It’s a sense that somehow they have failed even though that person’s success had nothing to do with them nor anything to with what they do in life. They may have heard the phrase “why can’t you be more like your brother/sister”. There’s always a sense that they will never be successful in that way. It was a way of getting noticed in the chaos of family life. They would never be successful enough so they were always a failure.

Cross Indexing: Sinus problems, Colds, Flu, Allergies, Post Nasal Drip

Created Patterns

  1. I do not see the consequences of my actions.  I am totally confused by the outcomes of my decisions.
  2. I  have too much stuff but I don’t know how to get rid of it.
  3. I am afraid to breathe but I must breathe or I will die.
  4. I feel under attack.  I can’t breath.
  5. I am constantly searching for the answers, with no results.
  6. I am dissatisfied with life.
  7. I feel defeated when I see that others have succeeded.
  8. I am a failure.
  9. I will never be good enough.

Diabetes Mellitus Type 2

Fears

  • Fear of joy
  • Fear of play
  • Fear of humiliation
  • Fear that they will be punished for not adhering to the rules
  • Fear of shame
  • Fear of betrayal
  • Fear of being creative
  • Fear of being trapped
  • Fear of feeling lost
  • Fear of the future
  • Fear of the unknown
  • Fear of the letting down others
  • Fear of failing
  • Fear of control
  • Fear of living
  • Fear of learning
    Fear of change
  • Fear of their inner wisdom
  • Fear of their heart
  • Fear of feelings
  • Fear of disappointment
  • Fear of letting go
  • Fear of being unaccepted
  • Fear of living an authentic life
  • Fear of not being good enough
  • Fear of their creativity
  • Fear of authority

Emotional States

  • Shut down child-like innocence. Out of balance feminine energy. No permission to play or experience joy. Creative is suppressed. Does not have alternatives for nurturance. Has been humiliated, shamed, or betrayed associated with creative/ nurturing from a trusted source.
  • Cannot see the forest for the trees. Feels lost. Future looks dark. Shut off from nurturing. Feels trapped.
  • Controlled by the responsibilities they have taken on. Does what their family wants them to do. Barely holding their world together. Feel like they carry a heavy load.
  • Relinquished control of their life. Control of their life was given up to have some peace. Given up on the game of life.
  • Not in touch with their feelings and emotions. Pretend to be something they’re not. They feel no joy. Feel dead inside.
  • Fear of the unknown as a consequence has thrown away the opportunity to grow mind, body and spirit. Taken the safe path. Fear of risk. Suppressed the need for joy. Fear of change. Uses aspects of life as an excuse to stop growth.
  • Suppresses the intuitive. Sacrificed spiritual growth to be accepted. Afraid of losing everything if they embrace spiritual growth. Let themselves be controlled by others. Afraid of their own power.

Cross Indexing:diabetes, Diabetes Mellitus Type 1

Repeating Patterns: Wounded Creative Core, all work and no play, tends to not want friendships with women, disconnected from nature, doesn’t go to parks or out in nature.

Created Patterns

  1. I give up.
  2. I have no control, I am controlled by others.
  3. All work and no play – I must get the work done before I can relax.
  4. I am shamed.
  5. I am humiliated.
  6. I hate my mother/grandmother.
  7. I hate my father/grandfather.
  8. You can’t trust women.
  9. I am lost.
  10. I am trapped.
  11. I don’t know how to get my needs met.
  12. I am afraid of change.
  13. Being spiritual is dangerous.
  14. I am disconnected from my heart.
  15. I must be responsible.
  16. I am disconnected from my heart.
  17. Feelings are dangerous.
  18. Being different is dangerous.
  19. Being vulnerable is dangerous.
  20. Better the devil I know than the devil I don’t know.
  21. Change is dangerous.
  22. Feelings are dangerous.
  23. I am ashamed of ____________.
  24. I am dangerous.
  25. I am disappointed in life.
  26. I am disconnected from the creator.
  27. I am numb.
  28. I am sad all the time.
  29. I can’t express my emotions and be safe.
  30. I can’t feel.
  31. I can’t forgive ____________.
  32. I can’t release ____________.
  33. I don’t belong.
  34. I don’t get to be angry.
  35. I don’t know how to safely express my anger.
  36. I don’t know what being nurtured feels like.
  37. I don’t know what joy is.
  38. I don’t trust myself.
  39. I have been holding onto /feeling strong emotion of ____________ for a long time (these are negative emotions: hatred/resentment/anger/rage/bitterness/grief/sorrow/revenge).
  40. I have never found a place where I am happy.
  41. I let others tell me what to do.
  42. I must be accepted to be loved.
  43. I must do what others tell me to have peace.
  44. I must do whatever it takes to be safe.
  45. I must give in to have peace.
  46. I must give up myself to have peace.
  47. I must hide who I truly am.
  48. I must hold things together.
  49. I must not be different.
  50. I must sacrifice happiness to stay safe.
  51. I must sacrifice myself to be safe.
  52. I must show people that I am good enough.
  53. I need to be accepted by _______________.
  54. I’m beaten down by life.
  55. I’m not nurtured.
  56. I’m not safe with change.
  57. If I am creative people will hurt me.
  58. If I ignore the diabetes it will go away.
  59. If it’s done my way everything will be OK.
  60. It isn’t safe to create.
  61. It isn’t safe to play.
  62. It’s too late to make changes.
  63. Listening to your intuition is dangerous.
  64. My life should have been different.
  65. No one appreciates me.
  66. Psychic skills are dangerous.
  67. The doctors don’t know what their talking about.
  68. The unknown is dangerous.
  69. There is no joy/happiness in my life.
  70. What truth about diabetes are you denying?
  71. Why do you criticize others?
  72. Women betray/hurt me. (Which women have betrayed or hurt you?)
  73. You can’t make a living being creative.