Oxycontin: The Spiritual, Emotional, and Mental Effect

Oxycontin: The Spiritual, Emotional, and Mental Effect

Summary

OxyContin:

  1. facilitates the creation of thought forms that further the addiction.
  2. stops creativity.
  3. creates an identity that supports continuation of the pain and drug use.
  4. creates physical issues that can create secondary issues.
  5. creates a sense of disconnectedness from the body, emotions and thought processes.
  6. creates the lack of desire to nourish the body, the mind and the emotions.
  7. renders a population docile.
  8. creates duality.
  9. creates the lack of mental reasoning.
  10. creates memory issues.
  11. creates isolation.

Introduction:

During the Summer of 2019 I had my right knee replaced.  As part of my pain treatment I was prescribed OxyContin.  After knee replacement surgery there is a push by the health practitioners to get you out of bed and back into your normal life as quickly as possible.  It is my opinion that as long as you are taking OxyContin an attempt at a normal life is more vague and ghostly than real.

In the early part of the knee replacement recovery process you are supposed to take pain medication ahead of the pain.  This meant you were on a schedule of Oxycontin every few hours.  I was taking a very small dosage.  Using the drug interfered with normal sleep but so would the pain so there were few choices.  In the weeks that followed I started to reduce the amount of Oxycontin I was taking.  I stayed on a schedule but cut the pills so I could take an even smaller dosage.  Then I changed the schedule by lengthening the time between the reduced dosage.  Within 6 hours of taking a dose I began to experience withdrawal symptoms; abdominal cramping, muscle cramping, anxiety, and I felt like I had the flu.  The anxiety was intense and sleep was impossible.  This went on for several days.  I then went cold turkey, no more Oxycontin, and after about five days I was finished with the physical withdrawal symptoms but not the haunting affect of the drug. I understood why people would become addicted to OxyContin.  I reached a place where I felt like I would do anything to get relief and that meant going back on the OxyContin.

While I was taking OxyContin I noticed many changes in my body’s functioning, my emotional state, my thinking processes and my subtle energy fields.  Some energy systems became really constricted and others became over activated.  The same was true with the effect on the physical body some parts of the body became over activated and the function of others parts was severely reduced which created other issues.   At times I experienced emotions that were the antithesis of my normal way of being.

OxyContin has the energy of a hungry ghost.  The hungry ghost is a tradition in Buddhist and Taoist cultures.  There are several versions of the hungry ghost lore.  The one I am referencing here is a vengeful spirit that is never full and can never be satisfied.  The energy of OxyContin is never satisfied and it brings suffering.

Subtle Energy Fields

An entity, thought form, is created by the energy of the Oxycontin and the release of dopamine.  The entity thrives on the euphoria of the brain from the dopamine release.  The Oxycontin entity exists for the sole purpose of getting another release of dopamine into the brain.  The body exists for the purpose of providing the means for taking in the Oxycontin.  That euphoria provides a sense of safety.  During the post withdrawal period I was having a difficult time sleeping.  It was 2 a.m. and I had not been able to fall asleep.  As I lay there feeling really frustrated I heard a very clear voice in my head say “Go get one of the little white pills”.  I was startled by the voice and it’s message.  I Remen Q’d the state of non-peace created by the thought form and managed to fall to sleep.  The thought form has not returned.

While I was writing this article there was another “energy of a certain quality” as Master Choa Kok Sui, founder of Pranic Healing,  would put it.  I felt a drag on the writing.  I felt something holding me back from analyzing the impact this drug had had on me.  When I sat with what I was feeling I sensed a gray blanket over my being.  When I questioned its source I understood it to be a relationship to the collective OxyContin addiction.  Again I used Remen Q to transmute the state of non-peace.

During the writing of this article my knee was feeling a bit achy.  I opened a Reiki session.   My hands became very warm and began to quiver with intensity as the energy moved through my hands and into my knee.  During my convalescence I did a periodic Reiki session on my knee.  The effect was minimal.   I was reminded of something Mrs. Takata, the Reiki Master that brought Reiki to the United States, was quoted as having said “You cannot mix your energies”.  At the time she was referring to one of her students who had ordered a glass of wine at dinner.  I am certain that this statement would apply to anything that altered your awareness and the use of Reiki.

Chakra Energy Effects

7th.  OxyContin creates a feeling of euphoria with the release of dopamine in the brain.  This rewires the brain.  This rewiring creates the desire to keep that feeling of euphoria.  This euphoria created a sense of disconnectedness with the world and people thus creating duality.  The euphoric experience alienated me from my body so that I could experience the effects of the drug.  I had no awareness of the connection to the wisdom of the soul through the heart during the use of this drug.  The drug superseded those connections and left me with little motivation other than being in the present euphoria.  Mental reasoning and tasks that required focus were impossible.  My thoughts were more like a bag of wet cement than the usual acuity I was familiar with.

6th.  I experienced an over activation of my intuitive energy centers, the information received through the third eye chakra is different from the heart and crown chakras,  while experiencing the euphoria phase.   I have always instinctively balanced my intuitive centers with day to day living.  I would intentionally activate those centers and access information in a directed and requested manner.  My ability to control the level of activation was being overridden by the affect of the dopamine release.  I would become aware of information that was unnecessary and mental clutter.   The problem with intuitive information received while under the influence of Oxycontin is that it is coming through a filter of Oxycontin and I was not in control of the flow of information.  For example: I would know when someone was hungry or I would be aware that they had not eaten breakfast.  This was not harmful but it was also not helpful.  Going into a public location like a grocery store was overwhelming because of the flood of mundane information.

During this period my memory was very faulty.  I could not remember what I had just eaten during a meal.  It wasn’t just that act of going down the hallway and forgetting where you were going.  I would watch TV with Mike in the evening and in the next second I could not remember what murder and mayhem I had just seen and heard.

5th.  When the dopamine levels reached the euphoria state I would feel the need to talk, the words had a manic quality to them.  I would endlessly talk.  The throat energy center was being over activated by the dopamine release.  The throat center was taking its direction from the thinking mind and the thinking mind had gone into a pleasure seeking ramble.    Reading was an impossible task.  I had no desire to read a book.  I had no desire to watch television.  One evening, while under the influence of Oxycontin, I read the same paragraph at least a dozen times before I gave up reading.  I could not focus on the words in front of me.  I had zero retention.  That was true the entire time I was using OxyContin.

Creative expression was blocked.  I had set out a stack of sewing projects prior to my surgery.  I theorized that I could at least make baby receiving blankets.  I had no desire to get near my sewing machine.  I also paint and that did not happen.

4th.  Feelings are distorted.  My heart did not accurately interpret information to create appropriate responses.  I had a sense that I could not trust or know the heart.  My head took over the concept of trusting.  My feelings were superseded by what my thinking mind was experiencing.

3rd. I quit experiencing joy outside of the effect the Oxycontin gives.  I had no power to create enjoyment. My entire being existed only for the purpose of being there to take the next dose of Oxycontin.  The only joy is what is allowed by the Oxycontin.

There was no desire to interact with others.  During the period of time I was using OxyContin I turned down several invitations from friends to meet for coffee or lunch.  I can remember thinking that leaving the house would mean that my OxyContin schedule would have been disrupted.  That schedule dominated my life.  I manipulated my dosage so that I could do my physical therapy.  That may sound benign enough except I can remember feeling anxious around how soon I could take a dose.  That OxyContin dose was the focus of my thinking hours before the actual appointment.  The OxyContin was creating an identity outside of the actual pain I was experiencing even as I weaned myself off of the drug.

2nd. I experienced a reduction, stopping, of momentum and desire.  There was no desire to create.  There was no desire to get things done.  Creative energies were impaired from flowing.  During this period of time I found it difficult to even write an email.  It wasn’t until I had been off the Oxycontin for two weeks that I was able to write again.  Then the experience was like someone slammed a door open and yelled “I’m home”.

The OxyContin causes a reduction in the flow of nutritional or nourishing energy; the energy of food or the energy of relationship connections that nourish you.  There’s a sense that the only thing you need to nourish you is the OxyContin.

1st.  The mental disconnectedness mentioned above also applied to the body.  While in a state of euphoria it felt as if I was another being outside of me.  This was a state of being ungrounded.  This energetic disconnection created continuous muscle cramping in both of my legs.  The feeling of disconnectedness creates a sense of purposelessness and depression.  There was nothing that I wanted to do except lay on the couch and take my drugs.  I had no appetite and I was losing weight (You need protein to rebuild tissue.  You need a healthy diet to keep your immune system and energy levels at optimum levels.).

Epilogue

Much has been written, especially in the last decade, about the effects of Oxycontin use on communities, families, and how the drug creates addiction.   Addiction to this drug has created long lasting scars to many communities across the United States.  A preponderance of use and overdose deaths in the United States are focused in Rust-Belt communities where there is high unemployment that spans generations.  Opioid addiction is called one of the diseases of despair1.  This population feels hopeless and economically stressed.  The impact of opioid addiction to economically stressed states from 2015 through 2017 shows an almost vertical increase in overdose deaths and addiction2.  An addicted population won’t stand up at political rallies and demand health care.  They won’t demand clean water and air.  They won’t demand better schools.  The population of people addicted to opioids is growing.

I am reminded of Aldous Huxley’s book “Brave New World” where the use of a drug, Soma, would render someone docile who had negative emotions, pain, discontent and the potential for causing trouble.  These people were feed a steady dose of Soma by the government.  These people turned into “slaves” of the state.  Is OxyContin the new world Soma?

Note:  This article was written from the perspective of my experience with Oxycontin on  energy centers, emotions, mental capabilities as well as my physical body.   This does not imply anyone else will have this experience.  During the use of this drug I felt a heightened awareness of the impact this drug had on creating imbalances in my body.

 

  1.  https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diseases_of_despair
  2. https://www.kff.org/state-category/health-status/opioids/

Additional Information:
https://www.drugabuse.gov/related-topics/trends-statistics/overdose-death-rates

Wounded Creative Core

What is The Wounded Creative Core? 

We are born with the ability to create and access that inner wisdom of inspiration, our creative core.  Institutions (schools, governments, etc.), cultures and religious dogma create conform and perform structures of behavior.  These structures constrain the creative core through punishment. These punishments are designed to reinforce control over the individual and groups through the use of physical, emotional, mental, financial and spiritual violence.

The institutions put you in a box.  The religious dogma may say that you can’t step outside of their moral box and love who you want without being condemned or worse.  A culture or religion may define your life in terms of your gender. If you are a woman you may be expected to marry at age 16. Yet your heart yearns to become an astrophysicist.  If you listen to your heart’s yearning, creative core, you may lose your family, your freedom and possibly your life. As a woman born in the early 1950’s it was determined that I had a specific set of options for a job; teacher, nurse or secretary.  I was expected to get married and have children, in that order. When creativity was expressed it had to be confined to acceptable forms that adhered to the expectations of the institutions.  

When the Creative Core is wounded a plethora of trauma is experienced.  That trauma translates to rejection, feeling unwanted, fear of authority, fear of your parents, fear of being unloved, and more.  These fears and feelings become emotional states and created patterns that become our identity.  This wounding is also reflected in the wounding of the feminine and masculine aspects of who we are.

*The Wounded Creative Core is explored in more depth in the Remen Q book.

Fears

  • Fear of my own creative abilities
  • Fear of your sexuality
  • Fear of your body
  • Fear of rules
  • Fear of breaking the rules
  • Fear of authority
  • Fear of standing up for what you believe
  • Fear of feeling
  • Fear of having your creativity seen
  • Fear of having my creativity questioned
  • Fear of being diminished
  • Fear of judgment
  • Fear of being forced to give up creative efforts
  • Fear of not being able to defend my creativity
  • Fear of not being able to follow through with my creative ideas
  • Fear I am going the wrong way
  • Fear of having my creativity destroyed
  • Fear of having my ideas stolen
  • Fear of being destroyed by criticism
  • Fear of being shamed / humiliated for my creativity
  • Fear of being ridiculed
  • Fear of being vulnerable and open
  • Fear of being seen 

Sinus Congestion – Chronic

Fears

  • Fear of being with people that reflect me back to me
  • Fear of flow
  • Fear of seeing
  • Fear of looking
  • Fear of freedom
  • Fear of living
  • Fear of being stopped from what they want to do
  • Fear of not having stuff
  • Fear of emptiness
  • Fear of being nothingness
  • Fear of not being defined by their stuff
  • Fear of summer
  • Fear of harvest
  • Fear of being present (congested thinking)
  • Fear of knowing the inner presence
  • Fear of being lost in someone else’s success
  • Fear of not being good enough
  • Fear of failure
  • Fear of breathing in life

Emotional States

  • Forethought is not their strong suit. They can’t seem to understand that if they do X then Y will happen. Led them to a place of constantly being mystified by their actions/reactions. Wants everyone else to understand that they didn’t see “that” coming. That is the story of their life. Hoards in a minor way. Has lots of stuff all around. Lots of energetic congestion with the stuff. Example: has lots of books they will never read and outgrew their usefulness long ago.
  • Warm weather makes them anxious. There’s a DNA memory (ancestral) of a trauma or hardship that happened repeatedly during the times of warm weather. That DNA memory triggers a desire to retreat and muffle any sounds they might make. They hold their life in an odd balance of live and don’t live (this is not life or death) it’s about being present in their life …smelling the air, feeling the air…because life is breath and breathing.
  • Nothing seems to satisfy their need to know. ‘Knowing’ is a driving force. They reach outside of themselves for wisdom that is within. They are constantly searching for the latest greatest wisdom and latest greatest teacher selling their wisdom for a few schillings.
  • Joyful at the site of others success but inward they feel defeated by it. This is not envy or jealousy. It’s a sense that somehow they have failed even though that person’s success had nothing to do with them nor anything to with what they do in life. They may have heard the phrase “why can’t you be more like your brother/sister”. There’s always a sense that they will never be successful in that way. It was a way of getting noticed in the chaos of family life. They would never be successful enough so they were always a failure.

Cross Indexing: Sinus problems, Colds, Flu, Allergies, Post Nasal Drip

Created Patterns

  1. I do not see the consequences of my actions.  I am totally confused by the outcomes of my decisions.
  2. I  have too much stuff but I don’t know how to get rid of it.
  3. I am afraid to breathe but I must breathe or I will die.
  4. I feel under attack.  I can’t breath.
  5. I am constantly searching for the answers, with no results.
  6. I am dissatisfied with life.
  7. I feel defeated when I see that others have succeeded.
  8. I am a failure.
  9. I will never be good enough.

Diabetes Mellitus Type 2

Fears

  • Fear of joy
  • Fear of play
  • Fear of humiliation
  • Fear that they will be punished for not adhering to the rules
  • Fear of shame
  • Fear of betrayal
  • Fear of being creative
  • Fear of being trapped
  • Fear of feeling lost
  • Fear of the future
  • Fear of the unknown
  • Fear of the letting down others
  • Fear of failing
  • Fear of control
  • Fear of living
  • Fear of learning
    Fear of change
  • Fear of their inner wisdom
  • Fear of their heart
  • Fear of feelings
  • Fear of disappointment
  • Fear of letting go
  • Fear of being unaccepted
  • Fear of living an authentic life
  • Fear of not being good enough
  • Fear of their creativity
  • Fear of authority

Emotional States

  • Shut down child-like innocence. Out of balance feminine energy. No permission to play or experience joy. Creative is suppressed. Does not have alternatives for nurturance. Has been humiliated, shamed, or betrayed associated with creative/ nurturing from a trusted source.
  • Cannot see the forest for the trees. Feels lost. Future looks dark. Shut off from nurturing. Feels trapped.
  • Controlled by the responsibilities they have taken on. Does what their family wants them to do. Barely holding their world together. Feel like they carry a heavy load.
  • Relinquished control of their life. Control of their life was given up to have some peace. Given up on the game of life.
  • Not in touch with their feelings and emotions. Pretend to be something they’re not. They feel no joy. Feel dead inside.
  • Fear of the unknown as a consequence has thrown away the opportunity to grow mind, body and spirit. Taken the safe path. Fear of risk. Suppressed the need for joy. Fear of change. Uses aspects of life as an excuse to stop growth.
  • Suppresses the intuitive. Sacrificed spiritual growth to be accepted. Afraid of losing everything if they embrace spiritual growth. Let themselves be controlled by others. Afraid of their own power.

Cross Indexing:diabetes, Diabetes Mellitus Type 1

Repeating Patterns: Wounded Creative Core, all work and no play, tends to not want friendships with women, disconnected from nature, doesn’t go to parks or out in nature.

Created Patterns

  1. I give up.
  2. I have no control, I am controlled by others.
  3. All work and no play – I must get the work done before I can relax.
  4. I am shamed.
  5. I am humiliated.
  6. I hate my mother/grandmother.
  7. I hate my father/grandfather.
  8. You can’t trust women.
  9. I am lost.
  10. I am trapped.
  11. I don’t know how to get my needs met.
  12. I am afraid of change.
  13. Being spiritual is dangerous.
  14. I am disconnected from my heart.
  15. I must be responsible.
  16. I am disconnected from my heart.
  17. Feelings are dangerous.
  18. Being different is dangerous.
  19. Being vulnerable is dangerous.
  20. Better the devil I know than the devil I don’t know.
  21. Change is dangerous.
  22. Feelings are dangerous.
  23. I am ashamed of ____________.
  24. I am dangerous.
  25. I am disappointed in life.
  26. I am disconnected from the creator.
  27. I am numb.
  28. I am sad all the time.
  29. I can’t express my emotions and be safe.
  30. I can’t feel.
  31. I can’t forgive ____________.
  32. I can’t release ____________.
  33. I don’t belong.
  34. I don’t get to be angry.
  35. I don’t know how to safely express my anger.
  36. I don’t know what being nurtured feels like.
  37. I don’t know what joy is.
  38. I don’t trust myself.
  39. I have been holding onto /feeling strong emotion of ____________ for a long time (these are negative emotions: hatred/resentment/anger/rage/bitterness/grief/sorrow/revenge).
  40. I have never found a place where I am happy.
  41. I let others tell me what to do.
  42. I must be accepted to be loved.
  43. I must do what others tell me to have peace.
  44. I must do whatever it takes to be safe.
  45. I must give in to have peace.
  46. I must give up myself to have peace.
  47. I must hide who I truly am.
  48. I must hold things together.
  49. I must not be different.
  50. I must sacrifice happiness to stay safe.
  51. I must sacrifice myself to be safe.
  52. I must show people that I am good enough.
  53. I need to be accepted by _______________.
  54. I’m beaten down by life.
  55. I’m not nurtured.
  56. I’m not safe with change.
  57. If I am creative people will hurt me.
  58. If I ignore the diabetes it will go away.
  59. If it’s done my way everything will be OK.
  60. It isn’t safe to create.
  61. It isn’t safe to play.
  62. It’s too late to make changes.
  63. Listening to your intuition is dangerous.
  64. My life should have been different.
  65. No one appreciates me.
  66. Psychic skills are dangerous.
  67. The doctors don’t know what their talking about.
  68. The unknown is dangerous.
  69. There is no joy/happiness in my life.
  70. What truth about diabetes are you denying?
  71. Why do you criticize others?
  72. Women betray/hurt me. (Which women have betrayed or hurt you?)
  73. You can’t make a living being creative.